Basically nothing super exciting has happened, which is the reason for no blogs of adventures. Just been working and wasting time on the internet, such of the story of my life during the summer. But I have enjoyed myself and feel very relaxed and happy. The stresses of school do not bother me right now. I have hope that when I apply again to the art department that my portfolio will be much better. I am also decided that Graphic design might not be what I really want to do. I have decided that I feel like I should be painting and drawing more than I should be designing websites and creating logos. I know it sounds strange, because I have been so set on it the last three years but the last couple of weeks as I get more into doing Graphic design related stuff, I find myself getting bored. I think I would much rather be an illustrator or just a regular artist. I don't want to have to memorized fonts and what they look like or what font size they are at. I want to express colors and feelings. Create worlds of my world. I don't want to be limited by the strict rules of web and ads. I want to have my own way of doing things.
Another strange thing that has occurred is I have grow a love for cooking delicious ramen in the past two weeks. Now I look forward to cooking my dinner instead of just wishing it would finish so I could eat it and go on with my day. I found joy in making this bowl that has many healthy foods in it and is inexpensive.
Even though many of my days are very boring and sort of lonely, I have really gotten to relax and find me again without the hustle and bustle. It is great to work the morning shift and then get home and sit and relax. I keeping thinking is this what it is going to be like after I graduate. Hard work and then nights of pure relaxation. I love getting to sit back, watch movies, play video games, but most of all think about me and my life and where I am going. I have been able to calm a lot of my fears and deal more with the hardships in my life. I have been able to face my challenges and understand more of what is in store for me. Its a very pleasant summer so far, compared to last years where I couldn't find a job anywhere and stressed every day that went by. I am so grateful for my job that I have now, I just wish I got a few more hours every week. Its better than no hours at all.
So Work has been pretty dead too. So that means I get to spend the whole day doing pretty much what I want. I have found a great deal of fun drawing in photoshop while watching youtube videos and I have to stay I have found some pretty awesome people that do vlogs regularly and love it. I can't wait till I get to see their new videos. I have been watching anything from music to comedy to tutorials. I just love it. I used to avoid youtube, but for obvious reasons. I spend too much time on it and there are a lot of crappy videos. But right now I have lots of time and its not like I am being unproductive, I am working on projects while watching. Also I have narrowed it down to a few people that I watch regularly, so I don't end up twenty minutes later wondering, how did I get to watching this random video of someone washing their cat. It still happens on an occasion but not as often as it used to. So anyways that is what I really have been up to the last couple of weeks. I didn't expect that I had this much to say but I guess I did.
Oh and I am no longer a teenager!! Yay, come at me world, I really feel like an adult now, which is weird. When I first started college I felt like a bunch of things were thrown at me at once, but I got used to it and now I am fine with it. I found ways to still feel like a kid but also be a grownup. I just feel very confident with who I am and what I am doing. It feels like such a great time in my life.
